A struggle can be a - reason.

My eyelids are raw.

I have to get even more drugs today.

I don't want to tell about more side effects if I can help it cause they will just give me more drugs.

I think I take about ten different ones for side effects now. I think I need one more besides that soon.

I am still happy just no energy. I really appreciate the little spots on my body that still do what they are supposed to and are not messed up.

I have to monitor my vision now as blindness is always a possible side effect.

Ha ha this is a really tough treatment.

They told me the mental part would be the hardest. If I were not indestructable, I could believe that.

I have survived seven weeks now and that is a good milestone. It feels like seven years sometimes.

My hair is turning into wire I think. At least the parts that are not starting to come out.

This is still not the hardest thing I have ever done, though fifty two weeks of it may do it. Still at least I know the tentative ending, and that makes it easier as long as I remember there is an end.

OK I cannot hold up my head anymore, so I will lie back down. I have slowed my weight loss to only a couple pounds a week now.

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